Psalm 63:1
O God, you are my God;
I earnestly search for you.
My soul thirsts for you;
my whole body longs for you
in this parched and weary land
where there is no water.
Today, I am struggling. My heart is gasping for air. Inside I am lying flat on the floor. My feet are dragging on the ground, forced to keep moving. Or are they? Can’t I just fall apart and give into all these emotions? All this heartache? Or do I need to evaluate truth? Sort out what is valid and what is not? Anyone out there wondering what in the world I am struggling with?
I am struggling with comparison. So much so, I want to quit. Toss in the towel. Let it all go, and walk away. No pain, no failure, no feelings. I’m my own worst critic. I overthink everything. I tear into all the I should have done this or that. I should have said this, or not said that. I should have stopped here, I should have added this there….
I am sick. I am sin sick. I have this issue with expectations. And when I fall short, I fall apart. The negative words fill my head. The comparison’s overshadow anything right in me. And then I want to walk away.
At the root of all this. Is me looking to self. Instead of looking up to God. My eyes are on pleasing people, they aren’t on Him. He isn’t displeased with me when I fall short. He is looking for me to SEARCH for Him.
Verse 3 Your unfailing love is better than life
Verse 5 You satisfy me more than the richest feast
Verse 7 Because you are my helper
Verse 8 I CLING TO YOU
Today I search for him to comfort me. To speak to me. To show me where my heart is and to put my value and worth in him. To let go of my expectations. To thirst for His words. If you are in a similar place. I challenge you to spend some time praying through Psalm 63.
ART TALK:
I started with the NeoColors II. I drew directly onto the page making circles.
Then used water brush to spread it out. Then I used the pink neocolor to splatter all over the page. (hard to see in pictures). I added a black snowflake near the circle blobs. Then I added my O MY SOUL stamp from the January Kit.
Used the alpha stickers to write out my text. Added a tab and some washi. Journaled a little and added black splatters on top of the original circle blobs. HA, I have no idea what to call those things other than blobs.
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Blessings, Colleen
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